Hais, i was such a fool. I guess there is not even a little hope left for us. Marcus said he`ll take me to the movies today and i was so happy. I woke up at 1.30pm because of my cramps. Managed to fall asleep again and woke up at 4-ish. Was so happy and couldnt wait for him to call me to get ready to meet him. But yet, disappointments fills me again. I waited and waited and waited.

Just received his call, and since its so late alrdy, and by the time i get ready and put on my makeup, it would already be 10+. By the time i reach there, it would be 11+ already, so we are not meeting today. Hais.. so sad.

Our r/s seems to be turning sour alrdy. The tighter i try to hold on to him, the more rebellious he would get, the more irritating he would find me. But yet, if i let him have his freedom, i would not feel at ease and i would not feel secured. Which girl doesnt wanna feel secured with her bf? Hais.. school is reopening and yet instead of being bothered with the tons of homework i`ve not done, im bothered by all this problems in my love life..

Will someone give me some really good advice?